we meet for the last time,we path by ema jaafar

it plays over and over again in my mind,like something sort of horrible movie.don't think I have ever told you how I felt the last time we met.your deep brown eyes were so fascinating,I remember being nervous and you walked out to greet me.that was the last time in which your eyes met mine.a pair of dark brown eyes as big and deep.I felt like I could lose myself in them.and that’s when I realized that I already loved you and that's not easy to forget the moment that we have been through.you filled my heart with so much joy,but then something went wrong it was in a blink of an eye how you took it all away.You started to fade away, and I begun to see who you really were. We said good bye.Im not going to stress over you anymore.It isnt worth it.I tried to work something out but you just ignored it.Im not trying to say I dont want you,because I definitely do.All Im saying is Im done chasing after you.

Im fighting to get you out of my head but Im holding onto every word that you ever said last night.my heart raced and felt like it would burst out of my chest.It was like the home run feeling,that jump over the fence feeling.I was swept off my feet! And when you hug me and I felt like I couldn't breathe.my knees suddenly went weak.what saddened me and broke my heart last night is when you said that is our last conversation between us.When I think back to those days we had,it aches me again and again,for I could not have imagined that you had made such terrible mistakes.dont you realize it?

you really broke my heart and Im not going to be that rebound girl,the girl you just come to when you want her,the girl who loves you with everything she has but yet you give nothing.Im not willing to be that girl anymore.Sorry,sweetie,but Im gone.Im done with tears.Im wiping my eyes.If you doesnt care then why the hell should I?Nevertheless,You will always be my first and greatest love.You will always live in my memory for all eternity and i only hope and pray that the path you are on of self discovery includes me when you reach the end of that path. the decision that you will make regarding us is free will - not chance, not luck but a thought out decision that will have profound effects and changes on so many lives. We, going our separate ways, might work out for the better but it is still an unknown thought. I can't say what is best for you.We will be so far down the road,more mature,and more secure than ever before.

but I still do care and have love for you,no matter what.We have had times which,no one else could ever replace, neither your place nor my place.The last night we spent together was something I have needed for so long.at least you tell me the truth eventhough i wish it would have never ended.I thought seeing you again would make me nervous but it felt as it always has.But I decided that enough is enough,that since you obviously dont care about me anymore Im just going to move on.Easier said than done I suppose,because at the end of the day Im staring out the window with these tears on my cheeks. Look what youve done to me.Thank you very much!You left a hole in my heart when you walked out the door, but maybe now I can move on.


*p/s: i've made this three weeks ago but nowadays alhamdulillah,i thank god because everythings have been settled down.bukan senang nak jujur tp 3hari lepas aku lega kami dah berbaik.kalau ada perkataan yang lebih baik dari indah,akan aku ungkapkan sebagaimana perasaan aku ini.walaupun sama,asyik gaduh kemudian baik tapi perasaan ni dah rasi selama 4 tahun.walaupun sebagai teman.mereka takkan tahu macamana kehadiran dia mengubah aku.mereka takkan tahu perasaan sakit bila setiap kali kehilangan dia.aku tak boleh hidup tanpa dia.untuk gig harini,perform elok-elok ye An.All the best dude.i miss you